The Addiction...

Have you ever...?

Felt a yearn, had an urge, a need, hunger, desire, an uncontrollable itch?

It creeps unto you, building up gradually, burning you up, eating you out...

Gnawing away at your innards, slowly at first, then faster, and faster, and faster...

You try to ignore it, deny it, refuse to heed its call.

The harder you try, the worse it becomes, until you feel you cannot hold back any longer...

And you decide to give in, just a bit this time, only one more time, surely for the last time.

So you reach out for it, gingerly, steadily, cautiously, tenderly, timidly, lovingly...

And you take it slowly, to draw out the pleasure, to make up for the torture...

Then the warmness starts, from the depths of your stomach, it spreads in all directions...

Reaching down your legs and racing towards your head, lifting you up, giving you life...

As it reaches the zone, you stutter, and sputter, trembling with a calmed frenzy...

And in a flash, you explode outwards, and contract inwards, your body shuddering, your spirit floating...

You become mellow, euphoric, debased, accomplished, broken, diminished...

You settle down into the placid zone of the aftermath,

Mind filled with regrets that this would be the last high,

Even as your body readies itself for the next fix...

You sit back, as though without a care, while you reflect with low affect,

For it dawns on you, that you are losing your soul to it...

One fix at a time.